It wasn't that long ago At least it feels that way Though three years have passed It seems like yesterday
We haven't exchanged words since then Though I yearn to once in awhile I wonder if you are happy now It was rare to see you smile
You would always put up a fuss Whether the issue was big or small Mood would spike then drop back down Like a game of volleyball
Laughter was a hidden treasure Seldom heard from your direction Your negativity would fester and grow Then spread like an infection
I tired of your constant critique Hearing you consistently curse Instead of taking responsibility Blamed your problems on the universe
Honestly it was ******* my heart Difficult to be your friend Some of your words sliced me deep Leaving wounds that still won't mend
I tried to understand your motive But your walls are made of concrete After countless attempts to scale their heights I finally admitted defeat
A little part of me is ashamed That my efforts were not enough But it was your choice to shut the world out Pride forcing you to act tough
I didn't know how to help you So I ended up giving you space Sure that our friendship was sacred A bond you could not replace
You covered up your true feelings With silent eyes cast toward the ground Kept your judgement a secret Even when (in need) you came around
If you cared you would have shared concern Talked to me one-on-one Yet you waited until the right moment To rip me open in front of everyone
You intentionally caused me harm Tried to make me look bad Out of nowhere trashed my name With no reason to be had
That was where I drew the line Blocked your facebook account After apologizing first More times than I can count
Finished being the better person Taking blows to my pride Convincing myself that you were worth it Actually different inside
If I mattered to you at all You would have confessed you were wrong But you never have and you never will I had put up with your **** far too long
Although I miss your presence Those nights I cannot sleep Your selfishness drove me away So for you I dare not weep
You were my best friend forever But forever ended too fast Now the only love between us Is love shared in the past
My ex bestie hit me up yesterday... i have mixed feelings about reconnecting. Especially since she never said sorry for what she did to **** our friendship up