Comparisons can be deadlier than a knife, Cutting down your successes because you are drowning in your failures Pinching at flesh Scrubbing at teeth, Pulling at hair. Disappear. Whiten. Grow. I am happy but not happy enough I have money but not enough money I have friends but not enough friends Enough? No Never enough Countdowns to dates you know are a waste of time ...Of energy He will run out of conversations You will run out of smiles Moans to fill the silence touches to fill the voids Making love is close enough to love, right? Smudged lipstick, clothes discarded, dignity no where to be seen. At least someone held me. That’s enough for now I’ll be fine once I’m out of my twenties. My eighties will be better. My Deathbed ruined by the flashbacks of the life i did not live. My husband, my kids, my grandkids.. Here but... they are not nearly as good as Carol’s or Debbie’s or Caitlyn’s. Enough No Never Enough