What is in a name? An identifier. Christine. Paul. Bernard. A sense of uniqueness. Foxy. The Rock. Buddy. A personality. John. Chad. Karen. A name is something to hold onto.
What is my name? A label to keep me concrete when people forget A phrase to pull me back down when I drift An identity so that I don't mold into everyone else My name keeps me together
But what does my name sound like? I forgot where I placed my strengths I forgot the way it was shaped to my body My person slips away from the letters as they form into your mouth and get lost in the bottomless sea of identifiers
Who am I? Billboards and signs that paint "fragile" across a face like mine Small, petite, figures that whisper "prey" and warn me of the big bad wolves Unfamiliar faces that tell me that I am "too much" as my bones grind against them and their hands try to cup me smaller there is nothing to keep me from vanishing
Who am I? Worker # 187, making a dime as they make a dollar? A father's daughter, a person to be handed and never to stand on it's own? Am I my weakest moments? Am I my triumphs?
Who am I? My own mocking voice screaming, giggling, obscenities before I catch myself My own motherly tone re-directing me from the bad roots in my childhood I am this thing and then I am another We are so inconsistent, as people
We forget to keep our names close to our hearts To choose our own identities, let ourselves remind each other that we are who we choose to be.
My name, it echoes against the cages of my body and it wraps around me reassuring me, reminding me, piecing me back together breathing life back into me.