Feeling so alone
Chilled to the bone
Our house is no longer a home
All day I can do nothing but roam
Searching for answers where there is nothing
Cannot grasp that something
That just isn't there
And all I can do is care
So much
Maybe too much
It's all I can think about
Filled with worry and doubt

Without you, mom
I can hardly keep calm
No little pill
Will ever fill
The gaping hole in my heart
That's your part

This aching
Nothing good baking
In the oven you so proudly bought
For every dollar you fought
And cheered so triumphantly
You laughed, so funnily
Now you're not here
I'm living my worst fear;
Losing you

You're not gone from this world
But you're temporarily gone from mine
My fingers curled
Into fists, these small hands of mine

Mom, I love you
And I long to hear you say
"I love you too"
And for the day
When you come home.

- Jay M
January 28th, 2020