Last night we lay in bed, I asked her under a code of honesty The request was a reach because opening up isn’t her policy If you had the Flashes power and could go back in time Would you marry me when we were dumb but in our prime
I could feel something going through her head She paused for a long while then said “In my heart of hearts I say yes” pause “But I don’t know if I would” My insides were screaming but I held it in as hard as I could
Frankness is so rare and in no way want me to hamper What could be said to not discourage the candor She is willing to talk so out with the mystery I asked, “what can I change so you don’t alter history?”
“it is *** and your obsession with me orgasming, you want it to much” “And now the things you shared is on the gay side not just a touch” I will admit I think about *** and my mind is filled to the brim I asked, “if you found someone that doesn’t want much *** would you have married him?” Both of us staring into the dark she said “Yes” Insides are reeling but I keep it suppressed.
18 years ago by chance I ran across an email from her lover I fought for her when she almost left me for that other Winning in the end, I have never fought so hard But would she fight for me I choose to disregard
All I could do was rejoice But I was the easy choice We were already married and if she stayed with him then it would have wrecked another She didn’t want to be a home wrecker because the other was married to a new mother
She rolled over to face me. Said “I need to sleep now” Kissed me and said she loved me and was sleeping soundly within minutes I lay with eyes wide open. The candor I asked for caused pain beyond my limits.
This morning when she waked all was usual She walked around naked and was so beautiful Though hurt I kissed her and smiled not wanting to be a **** Got dressed for casual day, I never wear a hat at work
But when I saw the bed post and saw my new ball cap What are the chances of this crap Coincidences can be so caviler Blazoned across the front was “Time Traveler”
I threw on the new cap but pulled it off when it didn’t fit I stared at it remembering I never got to wear it At the store she took and wore it the rest of the day She is fantasizing about a time away Defective Words