You may never know
But I sit in the cold sometimes
Holding the thoughts I thought would stay in my head
Attempting to keep warm

No
I am in water
Trudging through cold that hangs my head
That I believed I was untied too

No no no
I am tied to the wall
Believing I am free when I speak not of my despair
When behind it
I'm still tied

No!
You may never know
But I am still tired
And I can't close my eyes and wake rejuvenated

When I sit
Freezing in it again

When I trudge through water that just slows me down

When I'm tied to this wall
That won't let me properly breath

I search to find me through it all

But I can't

What was once me
Is no longer me
Nor am I no longer them
And they no longer me

You may never know
But that cold left me swelling
Something I thought couldn't happen before

You may never know
But that water held stuff
Stuff I didn't think before

You may never know
But that rope left my lungs trying to gasp for relief
that I never thought I'd lose before

Therefore
What was once me
Is no longer me
Nor am I no longer them
And they no longer me

You may never know
But me who was once
Is taking what I got
And making it me

You may never know
But I try