i gave it all for you,
all the time, all the energy, all the love
every ******' dime, every **** worry,
above all else.

nothin' but a waste,
you never wanted any space,
so I held on tight,
avoided every fight,

held a light to brighten every room you entered
watched you bloom as I slowly withered

and in return i got:

a burning fire scorching me with every touch,
a broken heart
yearning for the reciprocation of love.

meaningless emotion,
effortless promises,

stab after stab,
it's my fault, you whisper to me,
as the knife jabs

blood pours out into a cup,
for you, I say.

why do i care?


because i can't bear the thought,
of others feeling pain.

it feigns empathy,
and yet is so much more deadly.

i drew a shield around you,
my heart
taking the blow of every shot,
your brown-eyed counterpart.

i told myself it was for you,
and you were worth it all.

but in the end, after taking each and every hit
i could do nothing but quit and
fall.