I don't even know why my eyes feel heavy anymore. Is it the sleepless pocking trough or the tears that I'm yet to blink away, burning behind my eyes while reminding me of the fact that I'm not over it. Maybe it's a combination of both, maybe I'm just tired of not being over it. Perhaps, I'm just tired of my mind wandering back to you every chance it has, finding excuses to turn every thought back to us, yelling louder and louder when I try to block it out. And I know to talk it out it's useless, 'cause it's hard to talk to someone who is not listening but a part of me continues to have hope that one day, you'll start paying attention again. Before it's too late. - yelling thoughts into a void.