I'm not a fan of people who fail to see past the smoke they exhale. I don't enjoy the constant "I don't care" mindset, and I don't think it helps. I don't care if you ruin yourself. I don't care about your health but the second you hurt the ones I love I swear to god I won't hold back. Do you know there is more to life? Do you know that you can have both? You can be here for a good time AND a long time. It's not impossible. You canβt just brush things off like itβs nothing at all. And there is more to life than ***, drugs, and alcohol. You talk of how perfect it is and write of how awful it is I hope you get better. I hope you change again. I hope you start to see that there is always more to life.