i shaved off all my hair i thought it was some feminist statement i thought it was an outer expression of an inner revolution
but now i avoid mirrors and wish to god i could afford a decent wig
i gained 50 pounds i thought i was saying f*ck diet culture to the man i thought i was just allowing my body to self-soothe
but i fantasize about the times i used to think i was fat at least she had hair
i climb into my bed and wish i hadnt thrown out my cigarettes and wish i had hair and wish i was small again and wish i could just sleep for a few more years.