the last time you held my hand was a decade ago for a long time afterwards, life was at an all time low but i recovered and i healed because i learned that when life throws you a curveball, it doesn't mean your fate is sealed i lost you and it hurt your love for me should have been natural, like in the morning when one puts on a shirt so yah i'm in pain staring at you now, as the tears roll down my face i now rest my case reality has set in, i'm no longer angry at you for leaving i'm just sad that you decided to go, and that i have to live without you and i'm reminded of that through my breathing
this is about my grandmother who disowned me, that's all you have to know. i was reminded of her today in a way i wish that i wasn't, but it happened and i just have to take the hits and breathe.