Budding with excitement and seemingly pointless fear, but I held a new life in my hands shown through a *** of all my savings. My eyes dart wildly in awe of all the different cars, big ones, small ones, new ones, and foreign ones. Everyone smiled at us - the dealers and the other buyers who walked out with shiny, new vessels as if it were nothing. Nobody knew this was our fifth dealership, even we pretended to lose count maybe this time we’ll leave with something. I know they can see how badly I yearn for a car of my very own that I can say is mine, that I worked for it, that I can watch age through the years.