Every word that escapes my lips
Is a lie that you cannot resist
Your temptations as to tell me this.
But every word that I have spoken
Was nothing but truths of trust you've broken.

I felt negative feelings then.

My heart aches at every accusation,
At your non stop adulteration.
Although I do all that you ask of me.
Constantly feeling like I'm in your debt
Spiralling in all this regret.

All my feelings were being reset.

I barely sleep anymore, did you know?
Food never off the plate, and so?
Do you care? You used to though.
All these things I can't construe
Am I'm just another liablity to you?

Did you know? I have feelings too.

“One day I'll make you proud of me”
I once promised that unrealistically.
“One day I'll show you I'm useful too”
But that day is long overdue
“One day I won't be here, what will you do?”
A question I'd ask but knew the answer to.

I know what you're feeling too.

You'd be ecstatic, right?
Finally sleep a peaceful night.
What I wouldn't give to be in your shoes
You're doing so well over there
For soon I'd be out of your hair.

These feelings I feel are so unfair.