I'm closed in ,
Like a caged beast.
I am a prisoner of my own mind ,
can't escape something that is me.
my life is so upside down ,
The stress is really getting under my skin..

I'm fed up with myself ,
fed up with the laziness,
fed up with no motivation for change.
Just this  past week I have been feeling overwhelmed with reality,
I don't think i am going to make it.
However my wife tells me that I will,
She tries to make me happy...
When I tell her i'm not she cries inside,
She thinks that she should always make me happy...

What she don't get is I am sad at myself not her .
How am I supposed to support her life when i cant even get min started,
I don't know what to do...
Just wish i could be better,
I just don't have the motivation.....

-Paul R Hensley |||