When you see me you would think i had the weight of the world on my shoulders I look burdened Weighed down Each step taken is a struggle Every movement heavy Heavy That's how my body feels It feels like weights are on my shoulders It feels like sandbags are tied to my waist It feels like my shoes are weighed down by bricks Heavy My body is so heavy All my effort All my energy Goes into putting one foot in front of another The corner of my lips feels like it has barbells at the end It's a chore to smile Cheeks are sore from the strain Every muscle is protesting Why must i drag my weighed down body out into the world Each finger has a weight Every motion is weighed down If you looked at me with xray goggles you'd see all the weight i carry Each weight has a label Each weight represents a pain Each weight has something from the past, present, or future When people say baggage they think of me All this baggage All these burdens All this weight Heavy I'm so heavy How does one lighten the load My back is crippled My knees are buckling My ankles are shaking My head is a bowling ball But i smile I smile and try to make it through another day I count the hours minutes seconds until I'm back in bed Back in bed hidden from the world Back in bed where my battered and bruised body can rest Back in bed stripped down and exhausted Because every day is a chore All my energy is used getting out of bed All my focus is used to make myself work All my effort is used to put one foot in front of another All my sanity is used trying to not let others see Its almost impossible having a conversation How does one speak when they can barely function How can one speak when using all their strength just to stand How can one speak when all they want to do is scream Every day is the same thing An endless cycle It will never end Get up Smile Stumble Survive