what does it mean to be content?
is it biting your tongue and promising to repent?
they say god frowns upon it;
if i am, then i just won't fit
in and out of society. crying at night,
trying to figure out if what i feel is right.
the love i harbor is being called a sin,
my family telling me to throw love in the bin.
the heart is just an *****, right? we can be programmed
and trained to be or not to be, pre-planned
to not be who we want to be.  
i don't want to be me.