Earlier I relapsed Cutting away my woes and letting my pain seep out; But then I stopped, Realizing how many promises I was breaking And how many hearts I was shattering
I felt weak in my knees Falling to the ground I cried Ashamed and guilty How could I do such a thing to those I love?
Panic set in, I can't let anyone know Because I don't want to go back to that hell That cursed and wretched psychiatric hospital That's more like a prison with schedules and timed everything; Painted over windows and white walls that hold tallies of torturous days and child-like scribbles That makes it more of a trigger than everything else
But soon enough I gathered myself; I took a hot shower, And stood in front of the mirror practicing my smile While I planned what outfits to wear with foundation to hide what I've done
So now all is okay and fine, And I'm alright; At least, I think so...