Life is a series of experimentation Tests based on multiple observations Sometimes of the same thing And yet I still have questions that still need to be answered And there are no 4 options to choose from And even if there were The letters would have disappeared from how many times I’ve shaded the circle Just to erase it again And sometimes I try to look for a quick summary Just a simple short answer question But there’s so many different variations And none of them fit right So I end up filling 3 sheets of paper With just one answer Just to get no credit Because your teacher wanted you to Summarize What’s too much for you To summarize
Once I think I’ve found a hypothesis I receive some data feedback that Doesn’t correlate And so this idea Of what this is Of what love is Of what life is Can never be really answered Like a webster’s dictionary entree Or by anyone’s own experience Because like time It changes and grows
There was a story of a famous cobbler Who was visited by a demon And he was forced to make shoes for it And when it came back for its shoes It mutated between an elephant A mouse A man A dog I don’t know how to cobble the shoes that could fit So many forms From hooves To talons To perfect pedicured toes That’s how love has always come into my life And yet I have felt it so many times the same Like a squeeze not on my heart But my entire chest But how do you cobble shoes To fit so many feet While staying the same
It’s like trying to explain why you hate something To someone who has no idea But you have that idea Because of jealousy Or something that happened Maybe too long ago for you to Really Put words to it But there’s that feeling in your stomach And your brain is mashing the eject button Whenever you have to be close To this disgusting Terrible Ugly thing That people would hate too If they only knew The feeling you Just have
Until you I didn’t have that missing link And suddenly there are words in my mouth To explain The evolutionary changes in my mind Of why And not how
My Lucy Knowing that you see the same sky above me With me Makes the stars diamonds You are the reasoning as to why I have love Why I try to love Why I live to try To love You are the clips in my brain Constantly cycling through The wrinkle of your jawline when you laugh The way your shoulders bounce The way you kissed me on new years
You kissed everyone else there But I had to blame my sore stomach Tying itself in knots On the alcohol But it was the butterflies That you set a fire to In my lower intestine And they were crawling Up my throat Choking me With their wings
And when you finally wanted me As I watched you, Wanted you On the same warm rubber Of the trampoline In late spring
But the same rubber Was cool The night that I connected your lips to mine And the look you gave me was So confused And distant We were all so close And the heat was radiated Piled bodies pressed together On top of us Around us And yet you managed to pull away
I wanted to break that distance But that dark night was so bright And so vivid That in my mind The look you had Pulled away Again And again And again And in the yellow room where Everything was so warm And loving and hard When it needed to be but So soft Recalling that time is So hard Because while the yellow is So bright It hurts And photocopies into my brain Like it was recorded over the same tape That took in the image Of you pulling away The warm yellow Cut Again and again By your face Pulling away Further and further From mine
I cling to those warm images Trying to think of just those warm images Why can’t I just think of those warm images The smell and feeling of you lingers Like the heart beats I felt throughout my body I think of you And not just myself in your eyes I don’t think of how sad I was How much I wanted your attention To validate me Call me a person like Adam’s animals Claimed with names like labels That one has to live up to I just wanted to experience Your presence And that yellow warmth I just wanted to watch you As a painter As he would paint with such a tired, wise, skilled hand And learn by just observing how you take in the world And repeat it in your own imagery Your own beautiful imagery
And I burn When I think how people have seen this And scrape at the surface of all you are To present you dirt Where tectonic plates should be moved To give you the yellow sunshine beneath your feet And swirl around your hair Like a halo Just to see how beautifully you reflect it And when you came to me With balloons twisted around your ankles I wanted to hold you to the ground And be your tethering rock to the world I loved you too much to say the right words To twist our fingers together into knots And lock into place what we could be So I turned away and let you be pulled back A memory lost to gravity
To this day I can quote all of lilo and stitch Or homeward bound And still they sit on my shelf Only to exist When I chance a glance at their titles And certain scenes come back In vivid Technicolor Playing in the back of my mind And like someone had ****** with the tv’s color settings Everything is just so Yellow
I'm now really close friends with who this poem is about and they'll always be dear to me. There is some people you're always going to want in your life.