I smiled today.... I smiled today because I remembered your smile. How infectious it was like a plague but was able to cure a sickness, a smile that came with a glow in your eyez. A smile that was contagious and was guaranteed to make me or others smile. A smile that was a sight for sore eyez.
I laughed today.... I laughed today because I remembered how your laugh sounded, how it was music to my ears in a uncontrollable hysterical sense. To the point where our faces turned red while holding our sides so our ribs don't split. How your laughter echoed in a room as the sound was intertwined with mine. And how such laughter was filled with happiness and joy for that timeless moment in time.
I frowned today.... I frowned today because now all I have is the memory of your smile. I time travel in my thoughts searching for that sight and realize how life is so fragile. I don't see it physically, I can only see it with my eyez closed. Hoping that I never forget how it looks as my memory fades when I grow old.
I cried today.... I cried today because your laughter can no longer beat my ear drum. I can no longer hear the vibrations of your voice, I now have to imagine the sound of your laughter because youβre gone and no longer to hear from. I cried today and those tears were lead from a frown. Remembering how your laughter was hysterical made me cry hysterically cuz I can no longer hear that sound.
But..... Today, I smiled. I smiled today because of you and it's been a while....
To my little brother Andre. I miss you everyday. It hasnβt gotten any easier. I cry most of the time but today I smiled. RestEazyDreezy