takes a load of persuasion to convince me
to take off the blindfold that blinds me
wasn't made to really believe completely
that there's a better reality to see
a soul that couldn't comprehend the bad
takes a load of explaining to understand
that life isn't exactly very grand
just a little more coaxing to get up and stand

tired but not ready to let go of the shell
tired of believing that all is well
there's still so much pessimism to quell
need to be awakened by tons of church bells

never one to let the negativity out
always the one who lets people down
never really rising, always a half-crouch
eternity of darkness going round and round
never really appreciated calming sounds

help me get out of the grave i dug
the grave i buried myself in
don't look at my tombstone and shrug
i need help and i want a hug