Sep 2018
I've always wondered "why"
Why can't I write
Fluffy and warm poems,
Making me happy?
Why can't I write happy poems
Without hating myself?
Why can't I write about falling in love
Without cringing and deleting it?
Why are my friends
So good at writing poems
And making people feel
All these good emotions?
I want to be happy.
I want to be truly happy with whatever I'm doing.
Why can't I write
Fluffy and warm poems,
Making me happy?
Why can't I write happy poems
Without hating myself?
Why can't I write about falling in love
Without cringing and deleting it?
Why are my friends
So good at writing poems
And making people feel
All these good emotions?
I want to be happy.
I want to be truly happy with whatever I'm doing.
Everyone's writing beautiful poems, and I feel happy whenever I read them. How come I can't write happy poems without sounding disgusting or trying so hard?
I want to cheer people up, too.
But I end up drowning in my self hate anyway.
I am a source of negativity,
And I'm genuinely sorry.
I want to cheer people up, too.
But I end up drowning in my self hate anyway.
I am a source of negativity,
And I'm genuinely sorry.
