I was travelling along a busy road- Eyes opened and closed. I had music in my ears so loud that I could hear the sound of Ringing with every note. Way out of the window, I raced the ****** train to Scotland Up a dual carriageway and felt rapid Time dispel all notions of Going nowhere in life.
Without warning my world was jolted and Came to a stand still. We were in motion but I was trapped and uncomfortable as I remembered that yesterday, In your thoughtful, rash way, You texted me from a tent in Leeds Telling me that It was over.
Grass looked so much greener on the other side Of the glass, yet I was Unable to let go of the past. I thought to myselfย ย 'This is not how I planned my life would turn out' At least, not today. It hit me that I can Never plan to be happy because On the days I plan to be happy I will Think of this moment and Be sad.
Earth seems out of tune as I lose the race through thoughts of you and Begin to Hate my favourite songs; I love you.
I should have known better. I can't decide whether to Live my life and jump onto the train ahead or to Jump in front of it. I'm sorry I wasn't enough and I could never be No matter how hard I tried.
I'm in a traffic jam now. I watch the sun become eclipsed by the clouds and I wish you were Here.