"Hey, I heard about your dad, hope everything is ok?" It's not ok. Of course it's not ok. Nothing is ok. My dad is lying in isolation in intensive care. Although he doesn't look like my dad anymore. He's so ill, even my uncle who's a doctor is crying. I'm scared for him. I miss him. Even when he awake he's not really there because he's so confused. I miss my dad. I want him back. He's not ok. I have to get my work done otherwise I'll fail my course. But I can't do it. I can't say this to anyone. I just can't open up because I'm scared I'll be seen differently. That's not ok. Everything is out of control. That's not ok. So I'm controlling my food and my weight. But it's so stressful. I want everything to stop. I want everything to be ok. "Yeh it's all good thanks, how are you?"