The poet examines her work leafs through the crumpled papers watching handwriting change from entry to entry sometimes within poems as if emotion dictates scrawl- lighthanded, looping, or harsh and flat
She stops on a few drawn in by memory or lines like dreams where she imagined sleepless nights or the end of a life anything her mind could imagine fleshed out with the fluidity of a stream
The words had always been in her brain. It is impossible to know if they would have disappeared with nowhere to go if she hadnβt guided her pen to paper everyday, writing about whatever or whomever. Like the sketch artist
she has gotten better everyday the words appearing quicker and quicker. This might be due to English class itβs hard to say regardless she has grown- like a tree budding in Spring learning everything has a purpose
The poet is not just a poet she catches snippets from novels- the dialogue or introduction or internal stream of consciousness clanking around her brain She once wrote a fairytale about a boy who spoke to trees
All of them are precious- they are pieces of her soul spread out on lined paper calling out for a life that imagines, wonders, feels free, does not stand still- floats on the breeze like the eagle
She has learned a thing or two from Sylvia Plath: the good stuff the quality of dissonant language the stanza-length-decision Before she would write whatever sounded nice- she might still
The poet, satisfied, closes the journal imagining that one day her poems would reach into the minds of the world- gently drawing out dreams- inspiring words like she has been inspired And she closes her eyes with an exhale
When you used to journal every day, and don't anymore, what do you do? I try to remember.