I started smoking again because of you
I tore into the packaging like your teeth tore into my skin
Pressing the cigarette against my lips as if it could ever fill the void your lips left
With shaky hands i fumbled for my lighter
I felt my lungs burn as i inhaled
I choked
Choked like the first time i saw you
Choked like the first time we held hands
Choked like the first time we kissed
Choked like when the first time you said you loved me
Now here i am with menthol on my breath and you on my mind
My lungs burning like my body did, but this time without passion
I knew this cigarette was an act of treason against the body that worked hard to take care of me
But so was loving you