So here you are again at the footsteps of the walls I’ve rebuilt over and over again asking me to let you in.
I know this is not the first time that you’ve returned from your wars with the world. You are wounded and weary Your eyes look so dead I can see the graveyard behind them
You've lost so much, my love. including yourself.
and you know, if you would just let me I would tuck all those bombs away, Throw them to the skies and let them light up our lives instead of them burning and bruising our bodies
but you won't give up arms
yes, you're reaching out but you won't let me hold your hand
So we both know this wouldn’t end well my bones are still shaking from all the trauma you’ve caused
my love, please understand my heart is not a church. You cannot just return when you feel like it and pray for me to forgive your sins. I am not a god. I am only human. And there is a limit to how much hurt I can take.
Do you think your “sorry’s” are enough to sew these spaces you’ve sown in my soul? Don't you know how hard it is to keep living when all you've been doing is leaving me behind?
I still love you. I think I always will. But please don’t think I can keep on breaking myself just to keep you whole.