Passions, pleasure now feel like a chore, making my life a bore and my mind sore. Tick, tock Time is valuable panic rises, for there is a mental rigid routine to abide by. But now my soul wears a dress, which is stress. Watching shows, self care and reading books which once upon a time used to be relaxation, have now become a cross off a to do list. Losing interest in my mundane life, I find my breath meaningless, waking up pointless and have life just drag my corpse with time. There are mountains; burdening my mind and scraping my heart. A soul of a robot is what I have, except that I have a voice that complains and ears that hear commands, creating havoc on my mood and mind. All what I loved, became ‘have to’ and ‘should do’, a daunting tasks requiring more effort than it did before. Life seem drudgery and draining to wake up to.
But It was all about approach and perception. Digging deeper with why, I found reasons and meaning behind my life. It was about relishing in the process, rather than completing them. In the errands for others; I searched for joy of my own. Unleashing creativity in daily mundane activities, it did not seem robotic no more. Rediscovering happiness and enthusiasm, making it interesting by sharing and snapping, I set lose from the chains of my routine by reinvigorating spontaneity. For what felt like burden, wasn’t meant to be felt like a burden.