Too far away to fathom
too close to disregard
paperwork and phone calls
were adventures always this hard?

Not living at home
has always felt like a far-off future
but I’m working so hard to leave so soon
and the days are growing fewer and fewer

I’m scared and happy and apprehensive
that I’m leaving everyone I know behind
even if it is only for a few months
I’m still going to a new place blind

It’s not soon, but it’s so close
and thinking about leaving my friends
makes me want to cry
so when it’s time to go
that won’t be the end