Be the light in the world, they say.
But how can I be a light, when it feels so dark?
How can I be a light when all I do is burn out?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick goes the dark
Tock goes my dignity
Tick goes the light
Tock, it burns out
Watching the hours go by,
Watching my life fall out of line.
The timeline does not exist for
I haven't found it yet.
Am I not fit for the job?
Do I not have the potential?
Am I not good enough?
I roll out of bed, get dressed, put on some makeup;
So at least I can be seen in public.
I go to school.
I hang out with the kids that aren’t like me because at least, I am not alone.
I eat lunch with those people because at least, I don’t sit alone.
Those people made me someone who I am not, and someone I am not proud of.
Those people I call my friends, don’t see me as who I am, only as who they want me to be; and that’s enough for them.
Those people I call my friends, don’t care, they don’t understand, they don’t see, they don’t look.  For the person who I really am.
I want to be a light, but it feels too dark for me to shine
at least a little bit.

A couple months later

I don’t hang out with those people I used to call my friends.
Because I found my light, I have chosen to be me, and not them.
I have chosen to follow my heart instead of my mind.
I have chosen not to be a fool.