When I'm alone I shake, I push people away and I hide from the world because I'm afraid I'm going to brake.
When I'm alone I think. I think so much that when I try to remember what I was originally thinking about I can't.
When I'm alone I don't let anyone talk to me. Then I hate myself for being such a burden to them. Why am I like this? Talk to me.
When I'm alone I can't take a shower. Because that involves moving. Doing something I don't want to do.
When I'm alone for too long I shut down. I turn off my iPod so you can't talk to me. I turn off my tv. I turn off my lights as if that will turn off my brain and I lay there. Not moving. Not thinking. No emotion just.... Laying in the pitch black, a corpse that breathes.
When I'm alone it's like going through withdrawal. Doctor says therapy but I say I like being happy. It's worth the pain.
When I'm with you I forget about this. I'm happy, I'm laughing and talking. I am addicted to you. You are my drug.