I know I am a bad kid, Things I did were awful So I deserve every slap, Every punch, every insult Like “little *******” and Sonofabitch. Everything. Call me what I am as I Have been appallingly bad As a child, as an offspring, An embarrassment to you.
Show me that ugly face Of disappointment and hate Because I was never a great Reflection of your love, Of your concern, your care. After all, you feed me You give me clothes and bed And let me go to school. I am a worthless fool.
I don’t deserve more, And now, every smile hurts; Not just desserts for crimes Ones I committed all the time Every day I now understand Why your hand hit my jaw, Slapped my face so often I’m a disgrace, a shame I don’t deserve your name Or for you to look at me.
After all, look at me. I’m horribly fat, look! Those disgusting bulges in my lower backside. I disgust myself, completely I look at myself and heave. I wish I could leave and go, Find someplace else Where I can’t see myself. So nobody else has to.
I can’t take back the wet beds The expense you always said Was too much, the touch I craved back when I was young The breath in even my lungs Offending because I am bad. I am a sad example of kids And should be hid somewhere So you never have to spare Another moment on a bad kid.