Can evil be measured
By mideeds themselves?
Or is it by how one acts
When under attack
Whether they stood strong or fell?

Because I tend to fall
I do not stand tall
When pressure comes to face me

I crumble and cry
Now with tears in my eyes
I ask you, am I evil?

I lash out when I'm mad
Try to fight when I'm sad
And I lose myself in the bottle

I take drugs if I can find them
And refuse to sing divine hymns
A heretic, a drunk, but evil?

I hate who I am
And I hate what I do
Does that qualify as repentant?

But I'll just do the same thing
Feel the same sting
For self destruction is truly my penchant