I feel sick. Sick. Tumults of nerves Crash Upon my conscious shores. Waves Of endless misery Make my insides sore.
I feel weak. Weak. Drafts of fear Breeze Within my shaking bones. Rushes Of quiet anxiety Colder than the age old stones.
My stomach is too full of stones, My face too full of blood, My heart too full of mud, My soul too full of dark.
Where did I even start? What beginning is mine? Why do I pretend I’m fine? Where do I begin? When will it finally win? Why can’t I let go? Why can’t I ever hope to show what is trapped inside my heart This desire to be a part Of something better than me? What is better? What can I be?
Why can’t I separate these two Golden masks, One side is nothing but a cast of false brass, One side is nothing but a shell of empty gold, An image of beauty hiding a lesser self, The other is pure but only a little.
Reality is fickle, Falsity is a mistress to all.
The night reveals temptation, The day reveals the fall.
Drip, drip, drip, It creeps and drips and climbs, Up my throat this vile creature slimes. Its tingling fingers grip