it’s large and soft and full of memories now tainted by the thought of her countless nights spent soundly sleeping side by side comfortable and safe but those nights have ended will never return exchanged for awkward glances and menageries of bugs in my gut i miss that bed though i miss the closeness and the warmth of her body next to mine the routine the sameness the consistency
but life isnt consistent unless the consistency is change
so i tell myself there will be other beds better beds other girls better girls far better than she better faces, better smiles better memories stronger feelings of comfort and belonging and acceptance and love for myself and someone else.
inspired by a boy to write this. wrote it from his POV because he told me how he missed sleeping with his ex girlfriend in her bed