is this what it's like?
how they said it would be
the books said it would happen over and over
the papers say it doesn't exist
it looked like it made people hurt
forty of a hundred change their minds
my father said to wait
my mother said to pray
is this what it's like?
my sister said it makes you cry
the voices said it always goes away
i let myself try
is this what it's like
to love
the way it never dies
is this how it hurts?
is the hole in my chest the good kind of empty?
if his voice fills it
over again
will he run out of breath
if his hands heal me
will he be tired of my touch
is this how it is?
to love and not ask to be loved
to love and know you are loved
to find the mess that makes your own beautiful
to take broken bones and build a new self
to bring God back
to bring it all back
is this what it's like?
to love?