i’ve always been an observer.  not really one to start up a conversation with someone new, or to make the first move in a relationship, or to like being the center of attention.  instead, i watch people.  i learn about them through their actions; how they treat others, the things they like, the way they talk.  i can read people pretty well.  i know if they’re the type of person i want in my life almost instantly.  and with you i knew the second i laid my eyes on you.  there is something soft about you and i saw it right away.  your heart is good, you treat others well.  and the more i learn about you, the more i think you are the perfect boy for me.  i ache to be with you.  to have you feel the same about me as i do about you.  you would make me so happy, and i think i could make you happy too, but i’m so used to watching instead of talking that i find it hard to start up conversations.  i am afraid i’ll say the wrong thing, that you won’t like me like i like you.  my heart has been broken so many times by boys i could never even call mine.  i'd hate for someone like you to be added to that list.