I am not afraid Of very much Not because I'm brave Strong and fearless But because I am too Numb to be afraid
I am not afraid Of very much But what I am afraid of I am terrified of
I am not afraid Of very much But I am beyond terrified Of three things In this life
The first thing being Falling in love That does not mean I am afraid of love For love is a nice thing Gentle smiles and Friendly laughs That lead to hugs Kind words But no kisses Just loving the other person
Falling in love however That is a terrifying thing To crave their company Every hour of the day To wish to know What secrets their Smiles could hide The aching need to Be with them That terrifies me
The second thing is That I am afraid Of being powerless In all essences Defenseless Weak Unable to stop Awful, terrible, Catastrophic things From happening
The third and last The greatest fear I have Is that I am afraid Of being alone It is a crushing Crippling weight The weight of that fear
I am afraid of being alone In both senses In having no one by My side No one out there In this small-wide world Who cared And in being able To stand in a crowd With numbers reaching Ten thousands Yet no one to Know my name Or worse yet They knew my name And my story Yet they didn't care
These three things Are my three fears They might be small At least in number But they are Everything
Isn't it funny? I'm completely numb And I'm still afraid Perhaps I fear My own numbness Four fears isn't bad Yet they are awful