its weird.
because two days later i saw you again.
i was forced to talk to you.
as if nothing had ever happened.
its weird.
how my brain can keep its cool when its absolutely necessary.
i guess thats why I'm always crying now.
because i never see you.
so my brain has time
to let out all of its emotions
that it bottled up in that time.
because it had to.

its weird
seeing your friends
and having to avoid them
but they don't know
they don't know what you did
they think I'm crazy
they think I've lost my mind
maybe i have
or maybe I'm just dealing with the **** you put me through
and did to the others

the others know what you did
they don't know about me though
they know about each other
they don't know about you and i
no one knows
i know though
and you know
and i know i won't ever forget it
no matter how hard i have tried to
i won't forget
and now i don't want to forget

im determined
to fight
for myself
and the others
because you tried to destroy us
me
and you almost did
i won't lie
but you won't
ever
and i will stand strong
i will scream
at the top of my lungs
i will cry so loud
i will make my voice heard
i will make someone finally hear
because no one heard
what you did
and what i said
thats all changed
and so am i
i am proud of myself
i am strong
i am passionate
i am brave
and you are a coward

i hope you find help
i hope you get better
i hope you pray
i hope you find peace
and may you never
do what you did
to anyone else
anymore

i am a survivor
and i will stand up for everyone
assaulted by you

i will stand tall
and stand up for myself
because i won't deal with what you did to me anymore
this is my life
i will not let you ruin it
like you did

i will stand
up
for me
and the others

i will stand
and not be held down
and not have my mouth covered
and i will make sure people hear me scream

*******
i will stand
tall