I think I'm depressed Maybe I'm just being dramatic But how am I to tell if depression is this feeling of constant static? Is this what's got a hold on me? A grasp on me? Trying to suffocate the life out of me?! But just because right now, I can't breathe Doesn’t mean Depression is the thing choking me
I might be depressed But I'm fighting hard to keep it suppressed What does it feel like? It feels like pain It sounds like agony And it looks like strain It tastes like my emotions being flushed down the drain It smells like there’s something rotting inside my brain A noose around my hope Locked up with a chain The throbbing in my head Is not just a migraine
I think I'm depressed But what if this is normal? What if I'm just calling for attention? An honorable mention In the mental illness section Overthinking What's honestly just sadness The cause of this madness So I'm sinking Drinking in this lie In a debate against my own mind Trying to find The source of this Should I tell someone? Or let it be dismissed? But if I let it go Will I keep drowning in this abyss? How will I know If I can get over this? Without medication? Or a therapy session? Building up my frustration So tell me this: Have I lost my foundation? Is my mind splitting apart?! Is this just the start?! Would keeping my mouth shut really be smart?!
I might be depressed Depression is defined as severe dejection But what type of severe would put me in that section? I want to be saved But my fear is too great Am I making this up? Am I sealing this fate? All these questions seem to be worsening my headache
The thoughts in my mind are a mess This suffering isn't easy to digest It feels like there's a weight on my chest What to do now, I don't know what's best I'm reluctant to address the rest The ending now, you could have guessed I have no words best to express But I think that I might be depressed.
Dedicated to / written for: Whitehair. Ily girl <3