I know the joy that keeps us believing that we all should live a different life filled with purpose in a place filled with only a few good men and if that call comes from the inside that was once said to me when I was still watching from the shore I will be patiently waiting to be able, despite my fears despite the waves that are crashing against my ship to show them, with all that I am I will always be faithful to the one that will never stop coming after us.