Can I hide or run or disappear as everyone wishes?
guess i can't but i still cry. my broken heart still crashes.
i am afraid even though i see the newcomers are bright and safe and so  kind.
but help me out. i can not trust
old scars reminding, took over my lost mind.
and i can hear that violence,  feel the pain of past, it's getting old.
why, you  my heart is in scars awaiting for winter lone and cold.