I think of you, friend, as I make my way to Baltimore, awake and aware of the stillness in the backseat. Used to be at least three of us, sleepless and ******, never alone except when we slept. I think of you when the sunlight finally hits my windshield and refracts into rainbows all over the dashboard. I've always hated mornings, but this one is calm and beautiful and I can't wait to reach the shore. I think of you once more while I'm sitting on the docks tossing rocks into the Patapsco, watching the gulls go sleepily overhead. I dread the drive back home. But I'll be thinking of you when I hit the highway laughing at something you said when you were alive.