Sometimes I just want to close my eyes
feel the sun, bathe in the moonlight
I thought I saw you on the freeway
Looked back to see a stranger's eyes
staring back at mine
I feel your heat in the morning
I press my palm to your back again
If only you were breathing
I wish I could stop this sneezing
Cover your body with the comforter
wash the linens, empty the dishwasher
It's easier cooking for two
Ceramic bowls for me and you
It's so cold when the wind blows
over the clumps of ice and soft, heavy snow
packed hard around the doorframe now
not much reason for me to get out
I still see you looking back at me
when the screen goes black on TV
I don't recognize myself
I pulled the carpet up out of the floor today
exposed the stained, cracked wooden boards
and I thought about how we'd roll around
to the sounds of old records on the ground
The walls are bare and my hands are numb
I tiptoe around thoughts of my old gun
to these charred, heavy logs I'll succumb
Leave me to the ashes, bring me back to you
Let the fire exhale and breathe me life anew.