May 2017
Abruptly
I am thrown
into
cold cold cold
water
quickly sinking
deeper
deeper
deeper.
Once pulsating
with the sensations of
life,
my body is
silent, numb, surviving.
I feel no more.
I am
no
more.
No breath left.
I am dragged up
to
air.
like backing up
into an electric fence that I didn't know was there,
I am startled with returning sensation.
Pain, ice, misery.
I take a breath, and wait
to go
numb.
I am thrown
into
cold cold cold
water
quickly sinking
deeper
deeper
deeper.
Once pulsating
with the sensations of
life,
my body is
silent, numb, surviving.
I feel no more.
I am
no
more.
No breath left.
I am dragged up
to
air.
like backing up
into an electric fence that I didn't know was there,
I am startled with returning sensation.
Pain, ice, misery.
I take a breath, and wait
to go
numb.
I am writing this during a sudden burst of feelings of depression. I feel like I've been numb to any issues and am suddenly being shocked awake and hoping to return to some way of coping.
