When it comes to big decisions We often don’t want to decide Because we have some motives to hide
We don’t want to share them Because we are afraid Of what might be said
We are afraid Of people who have power Over our feelings and thoughts Who’s bad opinions about us Feel daunting
Or because us not wanting The expectations of others To be lower
We are afraid Of not appearing perfect And pretend that nothing has it effect On our decisions, thinking, And emotions
We are afraid Of digging deep Finding something that creeps The hell out of us
Were are afraid Of searching Because the path Long and steep Might lead To our ugly truth As dark as an abyss
But its amazing Why the most difficult thing For us to understand Is ourself When we are with ‘it’ a lifetime When we can hear it think Feel it feel Watch it change
It makes we wonder What we were doing All this time, Beside not understanding ourselves?
It makes me think What worth have all these shelves Of books and diaries and pictures If they don’t help us figure out Who we are?
It makes me ask What value traveling so far Around the world has If it doesn’t make us Tackle the ultimate task: To understand Were we stand From accepting Our essence That Justifies Our presence Decisions Actions
The wise keep repeating Know yourselves... But we keep deceiving Ourselves
Yet the most important thing When dealing with ourselves is Not to lie The most important question To ask ourselves is *“Who am I?”
A semi-poem half-prose that I wrote yesterday when thinking about my current situation and that of several people I am in touch with.
Its odd, but sometimes several people, including myself, go through the exact situation at the same time, and need the exact same realisation:
I seems that the roots of most of our problems go back to lying to ourselves and not knowing who we really are...