Black holes

I could talk about the black holes you have for eyes It's like the light gets lost in those hazel eyes that see nothing but pride Not by chance did we meet but it felt like my world was put in place You've never questioned me Saw me through my worst and best you said before we fell in love you had never heard me laugh so whole heartedly I can't say you complete me because it's your black hole eyes that sucked in me into your chest in between your ribs and settled into your warm heart that I desperately try to hold while we lay in each other's arms and I place my hand over your heart just to make sure I can make you feel so breathless like you make me You never completed me you took over me I've been heartbroken so many times and for all the wrong reasons and I'm clinging to you so pathetically praying to the god I never believed in That maybe you will be the one to put me back together like some bullshit teen novel It's been ingrained into my mind that I will find my wonder wall I called you my wonder wall because I wanted you to be the that saves me because I believe you'll be the one to save me But you've built up walls Walls that you don't realize are up And I sit there carefully prying and knocking on the stone walls and I'll hide when you start to back off But maybe I'm the one with walls Maybe it's me who is the black hole that sucks in the light and life and everything that ever made me smile Maybe I'll suck you in and never let you out and destroy you like I have been time and time again Maybe my rage will smash you like a beautiful vase and leave you to pick up the pieces But I don't want that I want you to tame my rage And close my black hole of a heart Let your warm touch calm my now cold heart And I can hear wonder wall playing in the back of my head every time I see you every time I kiss you Every time I kiss you it's like another black hole Sucking me in and pulling me apart like I'm made of thread and your nimble hands pulled the loose string You sewed an undone seam on your hoodie The hoodie I took from you and wear every single night dreaming that it's you engulfing me instead of this fabric The fabric that makes me feel safe and stops my worries and paranoid rambling Just like you You with black holes for a soul and a warm heart that jumps when I touch you You with the eyes that make me blush You with the nimble fingers that glide across my body You with lips oh god your lips You You who will never see this You who will break me or save me You

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