I'm not mad
I'm disappointed
That who you pretended to be for ten months doesn't actually exist
You led me to believe that you were it
You were everything I wanted
Seemingly perfect
And permanent

I'm disappointed that I met you
And then I had to lose you
Because it was only a matter of time
Before I found out you weren't real

I'm disappointed you convinced me that you were the love of my life
That I couldn't live without you
And then you left me
Destroyed me
You blew a hole in me

I'm disappointed that I met my person and then he died

I'm not mad
Just disappointed