Damage me mother
How hard can it be?
Is it collateral or was this really your plan?
I don't think you care, I don't think you know,
How dare you not realise
The length you have gone.
Maybe you've only ever brought tears to my eyes.

Am I supposed to move on,
To forgive and forget?
Growing up in the church,
I should have learnt to practice that
Instead of letting my mind wonder.
God, maybe I should have acted stronger;
Made myself see the truth.
I guess I didn't know what to search for,
In fact I didn't realise that there was anything at all.

Maybe it's myself I have to blame.
Should've gotten over it,
But I took the pain on a holiday
Chose to sleep in all the rain.
You're more than a thunder storm.
Never you seem to get caught,
Now you get everything that you want.
Anyone whose path you've crossed
Has to deal with the downpour,
Resurrect themselves from the ashes
Of the fires you have caused.

You could argue some are lucky:
For they manage to escape
Instead I am prone to stay.
I can't find a way to leave you,
Not like you left me
Emotionally and physically,
I was raised without you and with empathy.
Knowing your tactics,
Another reason I can't dare seem to let go from you,
Whenever I'm close to leaving
You come back.
The guilt comes back too.
The only guilty one here
Should really be you.