I wanna get the high I'm used to Light headed Bed ridden Weak heart Hospital admitted It's the best, right? A party every night Till you say goodbye to your mom Boarding that flight To Philly I remember the emotions that would fill me All those songs on repeat Flashing back Gripping the counter as I fell down All my dreams denounced I gave up my ambition Handed it over for a bottle My last two dollars Were spent full throttle On the dope Or a hit of my roommate **** Thinking that that's just what I need Take a shot Then smoke While the ******* is dripping down my throat It's not pretty When your favorite shirt Is ruined from a nose bleed Then everyone looks at you strange Best friend saying that you've changed You're no fun You're to serious Then they stop calling Ain't that mysterious? It's time to let go Put down the bottle Stop scrounging for a roach You put out a week ago Paranoia is no small price to pay You should be paranoid when you can die any day From your own hands From your own brain God, Grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change The courage to change the things I can And the wisdom to know the difference