I'm frightened I'm terrified I'm absolutely unnerved. Every moment Every next heartbeat I stand here Clenching my phone. Waiting for that next message back from you
Because that means you're still alive. And for a second I can breath.
I've had some late nights where I've been up all night talking to good friends of mine trying to convince them that they matter and that life is worth living. It terrifies me every time I don't get a text back.